Pei Ying

My time with her is amazing. So many days of smiles, laughter and intimacy. I suspect our friends were jealous.. that we could just sweep each other off our feets and connect like the final piece of a jigsaw puzzle.

We started so beautifully, like everything is too good to be true. We were in a romantic novel, with the shiny look in each others' eyes, the oblivious joy only we share. We pissed our friends off I suspect.

I think, after some time, when the surreal glow and the originality of it all wears off, we tend to get a bit less patient with each others' irrationality. Quarrels come, no major conflicts, but little ones that wore us down a little sometimes. I was unreasonably irrational and stubbornly unwilling to discuss my feelings.

I always had the idea that discussing feelings will make me feel vulnerable and lose control over our relationship, that I would become the one begging. After many a petty arguements, a substantial amount started by me, I learnt a thing or two about relationships.

Don't let problems hang there like an execeuted prisoner. Anger would fester in our minds.

Let my feelings be known. I'm still learning to do that. I would say there's some improvement, please be patient with me ok dear?

But through all of that, when I see her smile, only that would've mattered, and everything fades away.

Well it's the 4th month we've been together today. I loved everyday that I'm with her, without a shred of regret, just an ache of longing when she's not with me.

Happy 4th month "we're together" anniversary dear. I'll give you the roses when you're back ok?

The day that started

We sat on the sofa. It was cold, so we sat pretty close together, wrapped under a warm quilt. We were thirsty, so we drank a fair amount of beer. There were also too many thoughts on my mind... so I was smoking a little more than usual. As we inhaled our cigarettes, we watched the opening credits of a movie

We were in the living room, just the two of us, and the cold air. The lights was switched off, and we were sitting so close together, our cold feet touching, but we pretended that we didn't notice that. The light from the television screen dimly lit our faces with a cool blue light. I looked at her eyes. They were reflecting the dancing light on the TV screen. She looked like she didn't notice that our feet are touching while we both sat cross-legged on the sofa, warm under a soft quilt

I looked into her eyes as the credits of the movie we were watching started rolling. We were sitting ever closer. Our bodies were gently touching. Did we edge closer because of the cold?I didn't even notice. She looked straight at the telly, not even catching my glance. After five bottles of beer, I wasn't really thinking hard. I just knew I wanted to kiss her. I leaned over and gently pecked on the cheek before she had the time to react.

She noticed now. How closely we huddled, how I looked at her after i pecked her cheek. She gave a face of mild bewilderment fashioned in an awkward smile, and wanted to say something. I leaned over a kissed her again, in the mouth this time before she said a word. She leaned back and slided onto the sofa seat, our arms embracing, bodies entangled in a spontaneous whirl of romance