Serenity of an angel

my angel ==> *cough* slut *cough*
Angel I found on the net, don't know the artist...


I found this picture on the net while trying look for a model to base my drawings of an angel on.... Well you guys may not notice, but the serenity on her face is so beautiful, the little smile that reminds your of a doting mother, looking passively, giving a quiet protection to the sleeping child who felt the warmth and safety in her embrace. So many emotions, so many feelings just on the face of the angel. It is the serenity I couldn't draw. My angels look like sluts with wings in comparism..... must have been all that porn.....

You need to have peace in your heart to draw peace, and love in you to draw love. It's the same as poetry, pain in you will reflect anger, hurt, in your poems and love in you will bring out the best romantic verse you could ever conjure. Psychologically speaking, it's a bit of the fruedian thing, where your creative work reflects your subconsious. I must be missing something, something that drinks can not give and eyes can not find. I've been a Christian for more than half a year, not counting the backsliding time, and yet, there's still something that eluded me. Maybe it's things I could not give up or surrender, or could it be I've not given enough?

It's a point to ponder for myself, I shall relieve you of your misery of reading this verbal diarrhea. Good night.